Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Labor Pains

Greetings and thanks for staying with me. It’s good to be back to continuing this blog. When last you heard from me there was lots of movement on my horizon. I’m happy to say that fortunately the physical move is fully behind me now and only some unpacking is left ahead. While I’m not a big fan of the physical act of moving, I do love moving because I like the newness and change that it brings.



SURRENDER TO THE FLOW

This year has really been about surrender for me. All of this began in the last couple of months of last year. My work studio was in a small house in a neighborhood that wasn’t bad but certainly wasn’t the best in town. After being in the house for 11 months, I started having the occasional client get their car broken into after dark. After speaking with the landlord about this and exploring a few simple safety upgrades and not really seeing any changes, I decided that since I couldn’t get rid of the crime the only thing I could do was move my studio.

In March of 2010 I found a cute little studio condo to rent inside a much more secure building and moved there in April. I spent a month and a half getting myself set up in the new space and decorating it the way I like for my work. Once that was done, I sent an email out to my client base letting them know that I had moved and was ready to roll again. Two days after sending that email out, I received a note on my door from building management telling me that they knew about my business and wanted me out of the building as soon as possible. They said that since it was of an erotic nature, they considered it prostitution and that if I didn’t move out quickly they would take their evidence to the police.

Needless to say, they got my attention and so the search for a new place began in earnest. In talking with my amazing partner, we decided that renting a house where we could live and I could work was going to be the smartest option. It was a big decision to make for our relationship but since we’ve been together for nine years and are good communicators and open about our lives, it was a move we were willing to make if the situation was right. To that end we began searching for houses with separate mother-in-law units or finished basements that were separate from the living spaces.

We found what looked like the perfect house. The size was right for our living space and the basement was completely self-contained. Everything was going great for us to get the house and we were very excited about it. As we later learned, the house was in a neighborhood called Goat Hill. Apparently back when Seattle had brothels, they were located in that neighborhood. It just seemed like the perfect place for my studio to be so we turned in our move out notice at our apartment and my work studio and said that we’d be out at the end of June.

When it came time to sign the lease for the new place, like most places they wanted first and last month’s rent and a deposit. We were looking at almost 5,400 dollars necessary to move in and all this on the 3rd of the month. This meant that on top of the apartment rent and studio rent which we’d just finished paying, now we had to pay more. In order to make this work, I asked the new landlord if we could spread it out a bit over the month ahead before we moved in. He apparently took that as an inability to pay on my part and promptly backed out of the deal. Great. Our apartment had already been re-rented and asking to stay longer in a work studio that they wanted me out of wasn’t really an option. Panic.


THE UNIVERSE CONSPIRES WITH US

When we began searching again, my partner noticed that a rental home was back on the market that he had noticed and tried to get me to notice when I was looking for a new place to move my studio originally. At that time, I just wasn’t ready to combine my work and home life and so I dismissed the idea. This time out of desperation I decided to at least check it out. As it turned out it was perfect for our needs. Apparently it had been rented around the time that I rented the condo but things didn’t work out so well and so that deal fell through and it came back on the market just days before we found it.

I’m happy to say that we moved into the house on the first of July and every day we fall more and more in love with it. The studio and home separation is perfect and we are incredibly happy. One of the best parts about the house is that we actually gained more living space for ourselves in the move. This extra space has allowed my partner and me to both have our own “create space” as we’re calling them. In addition to our living space, each of us got a room on the top floor that we can call our own for creating art or in my case, writing. It’s just absolutely perfect and it’s in a sweet and safe neighborhood. We’re both very happy.

The layout of the house is representative of the chakra system to me. (The chakras are a topic which I’ll be talking a great deal more about in the next few months but if you are interested in knowing a bit more about them now, you can see the info on my site at www.MaleEroticEvolution.com/chakras.html.) The physical floor of the basement represents the root chakra (our connection to the Earth). My work space which is in the basement is then representative of the sacral chakra. This is the chakra related to sensuality and the connection to others. The physical floor above that represents the solar plexus chakra. It is where our personal power resides. On the main floor is where our bedroom, kitchen and living room are. This is the heart of the home. This floor represents the heart chakra which is the emotional center. The physical floor to the top level represents the throat chakra. This is the communication energy center. The top floor is where our “create spaces” are as well as a small meditation room. This floor represents the 3rd eye chakra which is where creativity is expressed and our connection the energy world resides. Finally the roof of the house represents the crown chakra which is where our connection to the Infinite is. I could not be happier about the layout of the house even if I had built it myself.


“A HAPPY ENDING”

So even though things certainly didn’t go like I had originally thought they might, ultimately they turned out better than I could have hoped for. At times I really feel like I have it all. I have a loving and supportive partner who is free of jealousy and understands the importance of my work. I get to do work that fulfills me on every level and that is having a powerful impact on my clients. I have a home/work space that is making my both of those parts of my life easier. I have my own create space that lets me come and write anytime that I like for as long as I like. I have loving friends and family who support and encourage me. I have great health, a light heart and a strong connection to the Divine and the feeling that great things are ahead. My desire is that all of this translates into my writing and will make the future of this blog even more powerful.


HIDDEN LESSONS

There is actually another lesson at work here for me. In February I told you about Mars being retrograde (http://peacefulmichael.blogspot.com/2010/02/retrograde-planets.html) until March 10th. In that post I talked about how I had been feeling “off” and that I believed I was being affected by the retrograde. Late February and March was when I searched for the new work studio. Knowing that Mars went direct on March 10th, I consciously scheduled the lease signing to be a few days after that thinking that all would be well. As you can see from my story above, it did not go very well at all.

In looking back on that post now in hindsight, the following paragraph from the Café Astrology site really jumps out at me.

With Mars retrograde in the usually assertive and direct sign of Leo, the tendency to internalize and hesitate might feel especially unnatural. Rather than direct and healthy expressions or outlets for frustrations, we might resort to sneaky, indirect, or obtuse methods of going after what we want. If we push ahead impulsively, we run into problems, obstacles, and frustrations.

My frustration with the break-ins led me to “only search for a space but not sign anything until Mars goes direct” so I pushed ahead impulsively and clearly ran into problems. I knew I was being impacted even enough that I wrote a blog entry about it and still I pushed ahead trying to sneak around the technicalities. There is a great lesson here for me that I can ONLY see through hindsight. Much can be learned from life when we’re willing to review our past actions this way. The lights were flashing and the bells were ringing. I tried sneaking under the warning lights and got hit by a train. When our Spirit brings us clear information and direct warnings, we need to honor that. Lesson learned…the hard way.



We certainly live in challenging times and it seems like every day it gets a little more challenging but these challenges, like the challenges I faced this year, are all leading up to something amazing that we just can’t see yet. I look forward to sharing more thoughts on that with you as we move forward. Thank you for your patience during my absence and for staying with me this far. I always welcome your comments here in the blog or directly by email. May you manifest all of your dreams. Now, enough about me, let’s get back to the deep stuff.

3 comments:

  1. Right on Michael! Welcome back and I am sure that all is in alignment and you will be on the right track! Your inspiration is outstanding!

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  2. @John CThank you John. It's good to feel the words flowing through me again in a room that's just for me in my new home. All IS in a beautiful alignment. Thanks for your support and encouragment.

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  3. Hey Pinto. You certainly sound happy and content! I'm glad things worked out so well for you and your partner. I admire your commitment to self-discovery and expansion. It's really paying off for you. Much love to you and yours!

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